They say that
“by the time you are in your mid twenties, you are pretty much who you are going to be for the rest of your life.”
The. Rest. Of. Your. Life. That, my friends, is a long time! So in response to that thought, I have compiled a small something that I can’t help but ponder nearly every day:
Things I hope will stay the same:
– The realization that life isn’t in my hands – there is something Greater that is making all of this work and i’m just here for the ride.
– The sense of gratitude that I have recently found in relation to the new life that I’m living. I seem to overwhelmingly understand that things could always be worse. Even when your brakes fail. On a Monday. On the way to work, And you don’t have the money to fix it. Reread the first item mentioned above. It’s not in my hands.
– Teaching is something that keeps you young … and so old at the same time. I’m the youngest on the team and nearly the youngest in the school and yet- the students think even I am ancient. Oy.
-Being nice isn’t overrated. Raised as an honest “yankee” – I have the gift of being honest. It’s brutal sometimes, really. But I have learned that there is a time and place in a professional world. As for the weekends, I’m going to be me. Consider yourself warned.
-Friends come and go … but the good ones that are meant to be in your life, will be there. I can’t believe I have been so fortunate to find such a crew that is full of love, excitement and wittiness in this new life that is now mine. I truly couldn’t be happier.
Things I hope will change before it becomes permanent:
– I won’t continue to have secret fears of certain adventures – I’m going o continue to let go and live a little.
– I want to stop thinking that just because I’m dedicated to work, I’m an old hag with no life. I know it’s not true, I’m active but I know there is MORE to living than this.
– Sooner or later, hopefully sooner, I would like to make the realization that I will be able to meet the demands of my bosses and not have to give my life to my career. I have spurts where dedication is overtaken by a desperate feeling to breathe. I’m hoping I learn to let go a little before teaching gets the best of me.
As you can see, the positives outweigh the things I wish to change. And there are so many more to add, but I don’t care to jinx things such as relationships with potential “ones” and relationships with family.